Accepting

Acceptance

Accepting I find can be the hardest thing to do in life. I mean having a problem whether it is depression, drug addiction or even an alcoholic before you can get better you need to admit  that you have an issue an name it. I find that you can only fight it when you accept it and can go and get the right help. I mean there are so many things we all have to accept themselves for who they are no matter what anyone says. We are the ones who have to live with ourselves with whatever choices we make. I know I have had a hard time accepting myself and admitting and accepting that I am who I am and that I do need the help from others. Over the past year and half I have come so far in my physical and mental health that some who have seen me over the years admit there has been a change and that I have learned to accept things that have happened and that I can not change the past but live for today and learn coping when the past decides it wants to creep back and get the best of me. 
I mean I have never come to grips that my biological father died five yrs ago and last year I lost the only dad i have ever known. Then, of course now i am dealing with my husband's father who just past a few days ago which has brought back the feelings of sorrow I feel for my own that I have never dealt with. I have tried to handle it the best way I can but the stress is getting the best of me but I know I need to stand up and admit that I am falling backwards but atleast I have people who care enough to kick me in the butt and stand and face me and say"You are falling backwards and your depression is taking hold of you and that you need to ask for help."This makes me feel good because alot of time we ourselves can not see somethings that are happening but others on the outside can and we need to accept their help and love of being able to tell us. It takes  alot for someone to come to us and say we are going backwards instead of still going forwards. What we have to be is strong to accept that and re-evaluate ourselves and really say " I need help and can't do it alone and thank you for pointing it out. I need to fight for myself and get back on track." You are not being weak if you accept the help you need because everything is connected in someway in the world. If we can not be here for ourselves.how can we be there for the one we loves.

I do love me and I am strong because I have so many people who love me for me and are there to hit me with reality when I need it. I can accept what i can not change but accept the things I can change such as getting rid of drama and taking care of me so I can be there for myself and everyone I love.