I am feeling like I am floating on air because I feel like I am finally being true to myself. I found someone who helps me realize that sometimes your life is like a puzzle sometimes there is a piece of your puzzle is missing and you feel incomplete when you are bisexual. I have always felt incomplete and now I met a woman who has made feel like me again it is almost like waking up from coma after many years of hiding who I really am. I mean the way I have explained it to my mom that I was . Her first question was "How can you love 2 people at the same time?" I replied to her "that there are things a man can give that a woman can't and there are things a woman can give me that a man can not." I took a big chance and placed a personal ad which I have never done before and looked for a woman for me even though I am married to a wonderful man. He is trying to understand (due o his brain damage at birth makes it hard to understand at times.) that he can not give me everything to make me feel whole. He knew from the beginning that I was bisexual and he accepted me for me and which made me feel really good and is why I do love him. He had been the first one over twenty some odd years that have. It took me years to come out and admit I am bisexual and that I am comfortable with it. After years of therapy I have learned acceptance of myself which is really important. I took a neurological test to test for learning disabilities come to find out that I actually suffer from a various disorders that make it hard to sometime function like most people. All I have to do now that I know what is not right and causing me challenges in my life is to learn to accept and learn how to function and improve my life so I can feel what most people call "NORMAL". I will never be normal but i will learn to accept to learn how to be.
I have been missing her everyday like the flowers miss the sun when it is raining. She runs through my mind like a horse running on a race track and then getting first place. I do feel like sleeping beauty being awakened finally after many years of a deep sleep. I know this is right and she makes me smile and feel full of luv and joy when I talk to her. She understands me and we just have so much in common and I wish the best for myself and I am gonna B positive no matter what happens happens. In my heart it finally feels whole and like it is beating a drum at a pow wow.
You need to follow your heart and listen to it do not question it just go with it. We all deserve to be whole and complete no matter what that means whether your gay,lesbian,bisexual or whatever your preference in your life is. NO SHOULD JUDGE YOU BECAUSE OF THE WAY YOU LOVE OR THE WAY YOU LIVE Be true to yourself and accept yourself because in the end you have to live with yourself no one can live your life for you. Funny saying "Don't worry, Be happy"
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